hey hey, what's wrong with me-

- hey, 'mind if i wanna be like i want ?
- uh ? what do you mean ?
- i don't wanna be like i am now
- why ?
- 'cuz it's not me
- why don't you change, so ?
- people don't want me to change. they say it's just because i'm a teenager who search for itself. and later, i'll regret it.
- you don't wanna desobey to them ? are you afraid to disappoint them ?
- well um ... i don't know. i'm angry but i can't yell at them. maybe i'm too weak.
- yeah, maybe.
- hey, you can confort me, y'know ?
- what for ? do you really need some attention ?
- ... what ? what's wrong with you ?
- no, what's wrong with YOU ? if you wanna change, then change. If some people don't agree with you, like if you care, you do what you want, it's yourself, not themselves.
- you say that but, do you know how difficult it is ? they want me to wear some ... silly dress and skirts, and i can't say anything.
- why ? are they aliens ? they can understand.
- no. they can understand but they're too selfish to try.
- and you, aren't you too selfish to keep that for yourself ?
- ... what do y- hey, don't run away !

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- yo, it's been a while.
- ...
- you didn't change, uh ?
- ...
- are you happy now ? i mean, to be like that.
- ...
- you don't look really enthusiastic about it.
- ...
- what, you're speechless ?
- ... i envy you.
- me ? you're funny. so, you don't understand anything.
- what do you mean ... ?
- if i say um ... you talk to the one you wanna be since the beginnig, what's your reaction ?
- you're lying.
- ah, of course you don't believe me. we just really don't look like each other, right ?
- ...
- do you wanna be me ?
- ... you ?
- more confident about yourself.
- but you're not me.
- well, if you say so. then stay like this, i can't do anything for you.
- ... can i really be like you ?
- no, but you can assume yourself.
- so i can't be like i want ...
- ... am i who you wanna be ?
- ... yes.
- then say it. you want to change.
- ... i want to change. i just want to be like i want to be. i want to love who i am.
- then go say it to your parents.
- ... i'm scared.
- go, i'll stay to help you.

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- so, you finally said it.
- ...
- are you alright ?
- ... they hit me ...
- ... wtf ? they HIT you ?!
- they don't want me to say something about it again...
- ... what's wrong with us ?
- no, what's wrong with me ...
- what ?
- maybe i'm just stupid to think about it. i'm a girl, i just can't do anything.
- are you crazy ? if you stay like this, you're gonn-
- DON'T SAY ANYTHING, JUST GO THE HELL AWAY !! ... i have enough ...
- no, don't do anything that can hurt you-*breaks the mirror*
- ... i'm tired of it ... maybe tired of life ... tired of myself ... haha, what a selfish thought. maybe most selfish than their own.

THE END

(c) MEI pour APPLE SPRING